Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Coming out the Other Side

Grief is such a personal thing.  Everyone deals with it differently.  I won't lie, these last 10 days have been really rough. I'm not going to get into all the details but I feel like I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  Today was Coach's Scott's Memorial Service.  So I think its the day when the healing begins.  I expect to have more good days than bad from here on out but I'm still thinking that there WILL be bad days.  I'll cross those bridges when I come to them. 

The most uplifting thing to come from all this is the overwhelming outpouring of love and support we have received from our local triathlon community. Truly I think that triathletes are a totally unique group of individuals.  Yes, we race against each other for the most part but we also spend a lot of time cheering each other on, training together and encouraging one another.  And when times get tough we band together and support each other like nothing I have ever been a part of before.

We had a Memorial ride for Coach Scott a few nights ago and hundreds of people turned out. They came from all different triathlon and cycling clubs around the PNW .It is amazing how one person can impact so many lives. goes on.  I miss him like crazy.  And I expect to feel that way for a long time. He was my coach, my training partner and my friend.  But he left behind an amazing legacy.  One that is all about paying it forward.  Scott's favorite saying was "Enjoy the Journey" (ETJ) and that is what I intend to do....all the way to Ironman Arizona.


  1. Inspirational. !!!!!!! :)

  2. I am so sorry to hear about this! You must be going through so much -I can't imagine how you must feel. Your training to get the Ironman is going to be so much different for you now, the focus more intense - I hope to meet you when we get there - I can't wait to meet you... take care of yourself.

  3. i can't imagine how tough this time is for those close to him, but what a beautiful way to remember him. hang in there!

  4. What a lovely way to honor your coach.

  5. I have never experienced love in a more tangible way than in these last 2 weeks. It is such a difficult thing to lose Coach Scott and at the very same time I feel like the Team Blaze family has fused together in a way that I have never in my life seen before. You are right. The triathlon family is unique. You said it best when you said that you have now started "a new journey." You're so right. It's not the same as it was but it can still be beautiful and amazing. And I plan to be there in a tutu the whole way through. ;)